lovely william

Guess what Ramosey, i found someone better to be loved! I met him at the last class today, named William. He is our headmaster's son! He looks better than you! Better! Better better!

a little shit

Hey, Ramosey.
Why you do this to me? Oh my god, how can you be so shit like this? How come you lied to me?
How come the truth is there was no love here, no love?
Why, Ramosey? Why? Why you lied?

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After Rams Dropped me at home, i just came in without giving a goodbye-kissing, i just waved my hands then left.

Ammy was waiting in the living room when i came. "Neld, Gio gave me something for you."
I was surprised, "What's that, Ammy?"
"I dunno, looks like a letter."
"Give it to me, well have you met him?"
"Nah, Gio gave it to Andy, and Andy gave it to me."
I took that box, and went upstairs to my room.

"Wait, Neld. Have you eaten?"
"I'm full, honey."

I took my bag off and undressed all what i wore. I opened the box from Gio. And found a letter from him with a wet rose inside. What that means? There's a CD too.

I tried the CD on my computer, and heard some sound. Red Jumpsuit Apparatus with Your Guardian Angel Song. And his handwiriting on his letter was the text of that song.



When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out

How this world turns cold
And breaks through my soul
And I know, I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

It's okay, it's okay, it's okay

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you, I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

'Cause you're my, you're my, my
My true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away

'Cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away
And please tell me, you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know, I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever

our first short kiss

This Friday, i was getting better. Well, but i think that i'm totally cure! I would go to school today. When i was seeing my face on the mirror, i heard some whistled. So i looked for it on the balcony. And guess what? It was Ramosey! He did s0me body language which showed me that he would waiting downside and brought be my his bike. I rushed, and went out after that.

I stood in front of him. He said, "Morning my Lady". He held my hand and gave a little kiss on it. OMG he's so romantic! Then i stepped into his bike, and here we went to school.

The class was so exciting because i sat beside Ramosey who can always give me a smart joke when i get bored. And at the end of the class, i asked him to teach me some subject that i didn't really understand, on the library. But he refused. He wanted to teach me on the stairs, near the front gate. It was okay for me.

On the stairs, he wasn't sat next to me. But he sat on the one higher level stairs than me, so i could lean on him. I didn't know whether he thinks that i was his girlfriend or just friend, but i thought that i was fell in love with him.

And after i understood about the subject i have asked him, i leaned on him. I could feel him so near. His mint breath, i'm always love this, oh my pretty boy.

I never know why i would always get sleepy when i was with him, beside him, near him. I realized that i closed my eyes. And suddenly i felt his head on my head, in the right side. I smiled with closed eyes. He whispered something that i won't forget. "Ti amo, mia signora"
I know what that means. He spoke in Italian, because his dad is an Italian.

Until i forget what times that we passed in silence until he kissed my cheek, so soft. And i looked at his eyes, hoped that he would give me in a lips, and being my first kiss. He was quite long in response, until he said something silly. "Well, you know what Lady, i'm not a good kisser. Even, i have never kiss someone yet, mm i mean outta my family, mm like my mom, and sister or you know what family, uh mm uh yeah i don't really know how to touch a girl, even to kiss softly, gently and whatever, i can't and i'm afraid of trying, maybe you will get ummm hurt or....................."

I interrupted him, cause he was so much lips hahaha. "Rams, if you wanna kiss, just kiss."

He was still did nothing until more than three or four minutes, and held my hand in he back side near my ear. Before that kiss, i was so afraid, because this was my first kiss. I didn't know what the hell to do. But, if i would kiss so just kiss, i thought so.

Then we kissed. He moved gently, so soft. Actually i was just do nothing with my lips, and i felt that he didn't use his tongue like in movies i'd love to watch. He did it brilliantly until it remains a tickled in my lips. Well, we both knew that we were not a good kisser. But we just did it. LOL.

Our own first kiss was in a short time. It was not over than ten seconds, it was maybe just for five seconds i guess.

And what we did after kiss? Just smile to each other and he dropped me at home.

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I couldn't go to school today because i don't think i could stand at the class. I feel dizzy, cold, and sick.

My House was empty until someone knocked the front door. I had to open it, so i got up from my bed. I thought that maybe the one behind the door was my Mom's student or Dad's friend. But i found someone, the one i know.

"Are you okay?" Ramosey Van Gotav asked me, he touched my face.
I was really surprised to know that.
"You don't attend the class?"
"I skipped it. Have you eaten your breakfast? Because i bring something for you."
Ramosey showed me something in his lunch bag.
"Let's come in."

He followed me and sat on the living room. I asked what did he want for drink, but he refused. He approached me and said, "I would take care of you, lady."

I had nothing to response him. So, i sat down on the sofa. He showed me something in his lunch box. Apples and Oranges. He peeled it, then brought it to my mouth.

Sometimes, i felt that Ramosey was just wanted to play with me, not really fell into me. He could be a stranger and lover too, in every single time i couldn't guess. He asked me to just lie in sofa, but i told him that i couldn't lie if it's not on my bed. So he wanted me to do that.

Actually, i was afraid that he would do something bad. But i kept doing it, we through the second floor. He held me until we got in my room.

I lied in my bed and i didn't know why i felt sleepy. I saw Ramosey was sat beside me and held my hand. He smiled.

"Why you do this to me?" i asked him.
I saw his gorgeous eyes showed some confuse mimic. I was thinking that that's an embarrassing question to ask. I was afraid he couldn't answer me.

He looked at me then kissed my forehead.

And i never know what he was did after i fell asleep. But there are something he left for me then

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Where Are Ya Gio?

Gio lied to me. He promised me to help me finishing some computer test problem, but he didn't come today. I have called him, but he didn't answer me. Oh did he really forget his promise? I have texted him a lot of messages, but there is no reply.

So i keep online and type a keyword:"Where are you now Gio?" But i found no place that signed you were there. Where are you? Oh i need your help, but you left me!

I think that maybe you were there, because just this picture that reasonable about where the hell you were going? Oh please call me back. I NEED YOUR HELP!

Friday Night

Friday Night. Seven O'Clock.

I saw Gio was standing wait for me outside.

"Good evening." he said, and i smiled. We walked together through the way. He got closer to me. Hi put his hand in his pant's pocket and he started to take the conversation two.

"What do you think if i take you to Library?"
"Why Library, Gio?"
"Because i think you will be happy there!"
"Oh it's ok. Come on, let's go."

I just followed wherever he would take me, it was not in a long time until we got into his little library. Waw it was awesome! His library was great!



There were a lot of encyclopedia of everything! He gave me an encyclopedia of outer space! That book was so cool! I sat down beside him, and we leaned on the wall. He opened each page, and i saw him from my side. He looked so mature.

The atmosphere was getting colder, i swear. He got up. I didn't know what would he does. But he showed me his camera, a pocket camera colored pink, so cute.

"Can i take yours?" he asked me.
"What for?"
"When you're gone, i will tell the world that i included in lucky boy group, because i ever spent my time with a girl like you."

I laughed. And he set the timer on his camera and sat back again next to me. We smiled together.